April 8, 2005
Family matters
Spain with its mystical weather mixed with the fresh earth smells after a night of rain, the beauty of ortensias, Camilias and Callas and the rythems of Paco de Lucia and Luz casal totally gripped my soul! ….I AM FOREVER IN LOVE.
Spending my evenings in taverns where Argentinean medical students played the bosa nova in its absolutely sensual sounds, or at the house of my uncle Se ( or commandant Rogelio) as I like to call him, discussing deep theological ideas with him, he who thinks of himself as atheist after thousands of years of religious abuse …
My grandmother showed me pictures of me as a baby in the arms of my deceased grandfather, she told me that I was always in his arms and I had funny sensation in the pit of my stomach. Then spending my weekends in a farm house in the middle of the beautiful nature, listening to my aunt Carmen telling me about the history of my family starting from our great great grandfather who was a shoemaker, talking to me as if she had seen me every day for the last 28 years of my life… and I felt at home…. Carmen is a very strong lady, Her strength is so inspiring… knowing that we have someone like that in the family is a source of pride for all of the ladies in the family, but what really makes her special is the heart made of gold that she has and her sensetivity that is covered with all those layers.
Many pieces of my identity finally fell in place in this trip. I made a reconciliation with myself and I feel perfectly happy with who I am. I understood where my argumentative nature comes from ( spend one weekend with Carmen and Adrian to understand how we the blancos would react), where my tendency to get so emotional in the (God Forbid) case of watching a stupid love movie started off, where my dry skin is originally inherited, my dark colour and curly hair… we are all like that!. I understood why my mother thinks like that and why she behaves like that… she is simply like that 
Maybe we are not the most ideal family on this planet… but the greatest thing about this family is that they are MY family.
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